It’s been two weeks since I shared my original post on laser eye treatment. Please forgive me for leaving you with such a cliff hanger. I simply couldn’t resist.
So far we discussed the reasons I chose to undergo the treatment and the process that led me to the surgery room on the 10th of April 2017.
Let the real fun begin.
As I said previously, I was very chilled about the whole process until the day my mum made me panic. I don’t really blame her, not directly, as I did all of this to myself – but she was the one who prompted it. She kept asking me over and over again not to go along with the laser eye treatment as I may go blind because of it… So I decided to fact-check her.
Soon after I discovered that there is an approximate chance of me going legally blind of 1:5000000. A chance that noone has had the misfortune to take yet, so it is all up for grabs. I also discovered, as an aside, that being blind and being legally blind are two different things. The more you learn!
I read a great many tales of failure. People who were left with double vision for the rest of their lives. People who merely reverted back to the vision they had before. Halo effects everywhere, and being young and wide-pupiled I was a guaranteed halo (thin cornea, wide pupils… what is wrong with me). People in chronic pain. People who needed to have their treatments redone. I opened a veritable Pandora’s box filled with pure misery, and it almost drained me to bits.
I couldn’t sleep. I kept crying. You can view the progression of my madness through my post history, suddenly filled with pieces on fear and perseverance. But one thing remained certain – I was not ready to quit. No matter how horribly stressed I was, no matter how sleep deprived, I was determined to go for it. [Read more…]